Disaster zone – Beware!!!

Have you ever felt that you have the phrase “DISASTER” stuck to your forehead or you are carry a post – it stuck to your back stating “BEWARE.” From the time you wake up to the time you lay to rest at night, it’s all about appearance and how you live your life. The funny but so ironic fact is that we only have one life and why can’t we think of it that this life is to not to fix but to make mistakes. We fall constantly in our thoughts, in our actions and in our principles. We have the guilt that we could have been better. Sometimes looking back at life you try to praise and boast around your people that you do not have any regrets about your life. Then we start living this big lie pretending to be satisfied with life the way it is going, being happy with your job, your career, your boss, your parents, relatives and future. It is as if future is forced to look wonderful as if it will be pulled out of a fairy tale. Then you learn to question all the statues you have set for yourself from the time you learn you got to fend for yourself. Were rules ever needed in the first place, when you are girl who loves to break them rather! From the first day of one’s imagination what do you do if you have painted yourself to be tough on yourself? To realize you stand at the end of the tunnel all alone hurts more than anything. It’s even unbearable to feel that you have become nobody. It’s as if when you look at the mirror, you don’t see yourself anymore! Then there are sometimes you feel like being engulfed with remorse and melting away in that fire. All the plans that you have had for your life erases away as though they weren’t existent. Why is our life so confusing and why do we let ourselves suffer so much. The greed of wanting more, being overzealous and ambitious, desiring and dreaming leads us to a route of suffering.